http://blogs.fullhyderabad.com/showblog.php?blogId=158 My untitled blog. untitled 2023-09-10T13:19:56Z http://blogs.fullhyderabad.com/showblog.php?op=ViewArticle&articleId=1423&blogId=158 One of teh reasons i blog is coz i need to put all my bad-side onto some place and i chose this. And this proved worthy enough to come in terms with the bad side of myself. <br /> <br /> Yday, my co roommates told me that they are searching for a house, and at that point i had a to-let house in my mind. But as i had a rough time with those two, i initially was reluctant to let them know about it. But again, felt taht i should not be doing that, and told them about the house. Well, as alls well taht ends well, i was relieved of teh guilt and was able to converse with them freely. <br /> <br /> Though this does not qualify to be an altruistic act, but it did help me for good, for my own good. <br /> General 2005-01-22T06:05:59Z untitled http://blogs.fullhyderabad.com/showblog.php?op=ViewArticle&articleId=1413&blogId=158 Many of my freinds call me a liar. <br /> i feel piqued by that, but i do have some standards when to lie and when not to. <br /> A typical (widely same) answer would be, i lie when i know that nobody is hurt by that.<br /> For instance, when some one asks me to call him and i forget to do so, instead of accepting, i tell him that i did but the line was busy. <br /> When some one asks my opinion on something , i try to answer it by saying what he might be expecting from me, even if its not my honest opinion. <br /> <br /> May be every one must be doing the same but i think i do it a bit more often. SO i end up as a liar..<br /> I tried a lot to reduce it, but at THAT VERY moment, i feel my tongue tied and woudl lie again, postpoing it for teh next time. <br /> <br /> But, who ever calls me a liar would have lied too na.. then why pointing me out. General 2005-01-19T09:10:01Z untitled http://blogs.fullhyderabad.com/showblog.php?op=ViewArticle&articleId=1404&blogId=158 <p>20 things i dont like about myself. </p> <p>1. I hate the fact that i hate somethings about myself. </p> <p>2. not being social with strangers ( at times even with freinds)</p> <p>3. postponing things.</p> <p>4. not taking my eyes off gorgeous girls. </p> <p>5. Urge to be in the limelight.</p> <p>6. At times, my depsuness to have a girl frined.</p> <p>7. Aim to achieve high, but not thriving for it. </p> <p>8.&nbsp;being pessimistic about&nbsp;things&nbsp;that i know will never happen </p> <p>9. Talking to myself when am alone. </p> <p>10. Thinking bad about people whom i dont like, also the fact that i dont like some people. </p> <p>11. Skiiping pages while reading novels. </p> <p>12. Doing nothing to&nbsp; improve myself. </p> <p>13. My fear that i have a bad breath. </p> <p>14. Not keeping my hair tidy.</p> <p>15. for anxiety being the general reaction for every thing. </p> <p>16. taking the resort of friends when in trouble. </p> <p>17. saying yes when i want to say no. </p> <p>18. Thinking in monetary terms.</p> <p>19. High expectations upon myself and others. </p> <p>20. Fear. </p> <p>seems the list can go on for another .....</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> General 2005-01-17T17:23:49Z untitled http://blogs.fullhyderabad.com/showblog.php?op=ViewArticle&articleId=1199&blogId=158 <p>i am bored like anything now. </p> <p>I am still sitting in the office with almost everyone of my project left the office. Reason being my roommates have not finished their work and, if i think more broad, its because i dont know how to drive. </p> <p>My roommates have not finished their work and so i have to wait for them. My not knowing driving has become a nuisence for me. I want to go to a pub whereas they are not interested.. They want to go to a friends place for dinner but i dont feel comfortable with them. I wish i know&nbsp;a way out of this. And this damn country has a bloody rule which does not allow me to apply for a Learners license in the initial 6 months.</p> <p>lessons learnt:</p> <ul> <li>Never ever leave your country when you dont know how to drive. </li> <li>Never buy&nbsp;a CAR in a shared basis.. Its something personal.</li></ul> General 2004-12-03T09:19:17Z untitled http://blogs.fullhyderabad.com/showblog.php?op=ViewArticle&articleId=1196&blogId=158 <p>when i was with my friends i wanted to run away from them, as was fed up with the same tussles between us. But now when i really am away from them i am longing to get back to them..</p> <p>Hope my friends are missing me too.. </p> <p>&nbsp;</p> General 2004-11-30T21:15:14Z untitled http://blogs.fullhyderabad.com/showblog.php?op=ViewArticle&articleId=1122&blogId=158 <p>This is about my team mate.. </p> <p>Two days back i was assigned to solve a bug and he wasnot assigned any.From that day on he was after what i was doing. ( or may be i felt so).. He started working on taht bug, used to discuss it aloud when some one is around.. WOrse, today moning he occupied my PC for 90 good minutes looking for a fix.. </p> <p>Finally he&nbsp;found the fix and was good (bad) enough to let me know about taht.,, That too in a voice audible enough to some otehrs. </p> <p>I had to agree that its a nice fix, and that i was not investigating from his end,..Then on, he accompanied me to the manager and took the trouble of explaining the complete solution, and made me look like an idiot. And he ended teh conversation saying " any problem come to me".. </p> <p>Am i gloating for his success or was it his fault to flaunt before my manager.?????????</p> <p>Was there a better way for both of us to deal the complete thing.. </p> <p>When ever ppl say to be more professional, may be this is what they mean... </p> General 2004-11-09T18:43:24Z untitled http://blogs.fullhyderabad.com/showblog.php?op=ViewArticle&articleId=1081&blogId=158 <p>Last night me and my roomie dragged ourselves into a discussion which eventually turned on to the problmes we had in our prev work env.</p> <p>After a while of blabber he opened up.. Surprisingly what all problems i think i had ( and still have) he too had had. </p> <p>He had problems with his communication skills, with saying NO at the right time, get into inferiority complex often, always feel that he is wasting his time doing nothing worthful etc...</p> <p>Hmm. it makes me feel nice to find a companion,. atleast am not alone in the deep bullshit.But the good thing with him is that he has overcome most of the problems he had and i still have to..</p> <p>Hope i will......</p> <p>i dont know why but i feel that problems i have, occur only to me, but to none else.......&lt;br&gt;I started playing football with romanians here.. its quite relieveing after a days gluing-the-ass-to-chair thing. </p> General 2004-10-30T03:40:13Z untitled http://blogs.fullhyderabad.com/showblog.php?op=ViewArticle&articleId=1068&blogId=158 <p>I often have sleepless nights. Most due to my constant reminding of the worries i have. these days,( at times) i do have sleeples nights but of a different kind. </p> <p>I no longer worry about being awake, that i could sleep only for 3-4 hours, that i would be sleepy through out the next day, but i rather enjoi being awake...&nbsp;Earlier i used to think about all the things that happened to me and present myself with the worst case scenario of the complete issue. That made me greet the things the next day with a worse attitude. </p> <p>But lately, i am letting the thoughts dip in. Trying to make most out of the time i am getting for myself. And perhaps, no more frequent sleepless nights. </p> General 2004-10-27T23:54:58Z untitled http://blogs.fullhyderabad.com/showblog.php?op=ViewArticle&articleId=1050&blogId=158 <p>Actually thought pf posting something else, but my fickle mood made me to post this dumb thing about myself again. </p> <p>Today we were assigned the project.. and am just writing down what all went inside me. My new project would be&nbsp;some XYZ Maintenance. The second word made me feel real bad about the whole thing. I dont know what kind of work will welcome me there, but i reeled myself in&nbsp;gloomy thoughts. Like what if the work wont be nice, what if there is no&nbsp; chance of onsite, what if the project members are not nice, what if i dont get a shift soon, what if am not satisfied with the project.. i could not help being pessimistic,,. i know it wont help me but still..</p> <p>Its not the problem with the project am assigned to.. but even if the porject is a good one i would have been satisfied fully..Felt as if every other person in the class were put into good projects than mine. Though i didnt feel jealousy of any sort, but some where i was burning.,. upon none but my luck,, even before knowing whether its good or bad..</p> <p>i wish i were an optimist..( optimism of a pessimist)..</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> General 2004-10-22T16:50:50Z untitled http://blogs.fullhyderabad.com/showblog.php?op=ViewArticle&articleId=1043&blogId=158 <p>One book ireally wanted to read but was advised not to is the book of J. Krishna murthy. <br />There is this mentor of mine who said taht i am not matured enough to get into that kind of stuff. But the things he told me about what had happedned to some ppl (rather how they are influenced) after reading it, had made the things much more worse for me, by making me more curious about whats in that book. </p> <p>i was attracted to one point among all what he told .. that you dont tend to rate money as a substantial thing in life.. I really wanted to be one of that kind,, one who does not care for money&nbsp; at all. </p> <p>But as there is a lot of gap between being want to be one and really being one, i never succeeded in being one. <br />Well, its indeed a better way to live, without any monetary inhibitions, but its the hardest thing, i suppose.. </p> <p>I say to myself taht i should be practising that.. but am still practising it. When ever i go out shopping, or with a dinner with soemone, or i had to spend some money on anything.. i tend to take a back step thinking i should be saving this money rather than littering it away. Being in cyprus added to the woes.. I let my hair grow the way it wants fearing the 6 pound pocket cut. didnt buy a packof cigarettes which would cost me 2.5 pounds. Would not eat a bigMac in peace and the list continues,, though finite..<br />Who ever says they dont care for money might be lying,,like me.. i suppose. <br />I think i should get one JKs book for myself. <br />Money!!! its a gas!!!!</p> General 2004-10-20T02:42:24Z untitled