Simple stuff
baap | 29 October 2004, 1:59pm
Life....is simple. Those 3 words form the most sought after "challenge" among us ambitious humans. What i mean by simplicity is well..."simple". There's nothing more to
it..the more i try to theorize this concept, the statement becomes even more un-authentic. But lets have a go at it....recently i came upon a certain individual or rather multiple individuals who questioned other individuals on why do they complicate life so much or why do i (we/they/me) think about a certain aspect so much. True, it is
disturbing to see this cumbering process of delving into why something happens or how it happens or when will it happen or (not) happen..but i am in a dilemna as how to
answer them if i was asked the same.
On one side, its like leave it be wherever it is and continue ur existence..without bothering about it too much or by making insignificant glances into the matter. But then i would be only denying the enormous capability of Human thought! On the other hand, there are instances where there occurs so much introspection/scrutiny into the
matter that it often leads to destructive ends. When i say destructive, i mean non-constructive (obvious) but still...had to be stated explicitly.Nowadays i tend to see this rise
of NON-constructive scrutiny, speaking purely in context of fundamental thinking patterns.
Things like :
Why this happened is now extrapolated to (what if's...by making urself as the first person and simualting an environment where u are un-necessarily present in the situation
and how you would react to it)
How could this have happened? or How will it happen is again extended to (What if it happens or doesnt happen....not to you necessarily but another person...)
Im sure alot of people have gone through this phase, and there are several meanings to it:
DEPRESSION
LETHARGY
PROCRASTINATION...etc.
Basically a deliberate attempt to make one self unhappier, which eats through a person like saliva does to sugar candy. A lot of causes can be attributed to this, which brings me back to the main point SIMPLICITY. Im not talking about a simplistic way of living in the material sense but purely in the psychological sense. If a person starts transitioning towards a much more metaphysical way of thought (which is supposed to come only in times of sheer despair) often, such a person is in deep SHIT. Even worse if that person does this deliberately HE will end up in big time doo-doo to put in SIMPLY!
What is the solution to this? I ask myself too...i say its an interaction on a wider scale and ONLY on a personal level, not through crummy psuedo environments (YM! type shit)...which lends to an obligation to shift personalities from world-world. The Internet today is fast developing into a much WIDER world than the existing REAL WORLD, and makes one lose touch completely with the real world which is highly disturbing to me. So people get the fuck out and start communicating with much more efficient and articulate devices like ur mouth, hands, eyes (ears if possible :p), ooh tongue too! rather than commuinicating in a world which is ONLY attempting to copy these already freely available qualities
GO to your neighbours houses and have lunch if u have to
Talk to the Auto Driver on ur way to the bloody Web World
Talk to the "chichas", "mama's" and "kakas" of the cayfs...
Say GoodMorning and Good Evening to strangers...!!!! with a smile (flirtacious if necessary!!!)
If u bump into a stranger too often, introduce urself and say "catchya later"!!!
This stuff is bloody FUNDAMENTAL TEXT-BOOK shit that IS not supposed to fade away, this "Zombie Culture" that is highly conducive to people like me with their computer a few inches from where they sleep./.IS NOT AT ALL acceptable...
GO OUT!/ FUCK OFF/GET LOST (yeah ive done that too...literally)
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Current Mood: Cheerful
Current Music: Led Zep-Dyer Maker
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Existential ism
baap | 13 October 2004, 11:36pm
Life, as of now...is EXISTENTIAL..yeah..yep...thats what it is! Everything now revolves around the fact that "that thing" exists! Delving into how that thing has affected your existence is not relevant, but the fact that it exists is what should be appreciated or depriciated. Its been a long time since ive actually written anything but the fact that my writing exists is providing me comfort. Things have suddenly become superficial now, i mean not in the negative sense but superficial as in the existential sense. I no longer yearn to look beyond what is present right in front of me. I used to do that before, which led to a wastage of precious mental space and un-necessary inconsistency of emotions to particular things or people.
For example: There is a certain person, let his name be "Saurav" Ganguly...ok. This guy tends to lead his life based totally on verbally or outwardly projecting his view of other people, to other people. Previously, i would "outwardly" wonder why such people do such stuff, but now such an outward thought process has given way to a more cursory examination of his existence. He exists, He does such stuff, SO BE IT. I have become more supple, more adaptable to situations to people, more accepting if u will, no more getting pissed off at "deliberately stained jeans". WHY?. I know it was Fun for the audience, listening to my woes. But the truth of the matter is that, these were actually MY WOES! Small things like...Soap-Opera acting and insignificant things were my Primary Woes, the problem was that i dint priorities my disturbances/distractions...all of them were automatically HIGH Priority. From things like...."Sunsilk Black Shampoo ads showing why marriages solely depends on hair-texture" to "Whether im going to get a job or get a good score in GRE", all these woes were TOP Priority, which was proving to be too tough to handle!
So i have left the shampoo based woes to an existential prioirty, while the other woes i take into serious consideration so that i can act upon them more effectively which in turn would affect my life in some significant manner!
Another thing i have realised, or rather acheived unfortunately! I have discovered the limits of my Brain!, I have driven my brain to overload so many times, that there just isnt any way to take in more data (in the pure scientific sense), i mean there have been times, where i have to force myself to STOP THINKING Completely...in order to achieve something trivial like brushing my teeth or drinking Water or Sleeping! This saddens me, as my imagination is being restrained to do things it is best at doing! DREAMING!!!!! YES, I cant Dream anymore...this deliberate restraint on the mind has extended to the total shutdown of the "Dream Theatre" (*smirk)...while sleeping. No More time accelaration methods while driving....or doing some monontonous activity. Driving for example, has become easier...before i used to consiously daze in order to shorten journey times, but now it doesnt work.
Im on the verge of losing all of my creative abilities (however little they are)...SEE There right there.....the brackets before signifies this! I am becoming Cyncial of MY OWN SELF! SHIT......AWESOME-OH!
Current Mood: Thoughtful
Current Music: YES! - Owner of a Lonely Heart
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