I am just a restless mind with random thoughts. I am just an average person trying to progress into an unknown higher state. A state where everything you do and everything you see makes sense. I hate being average. I want to be at peace.

I do not want some random thoughts circumnavigating my mind and drive me insane. Make me question my purpose of living.I tried killing myself, but could not. Why? I do not know why i want to live.

I think conscience is our biggest enemy. had humans not had conscience, they could have been something else.Or is it intelligence that ruining mankind?