krishnazden

scared and wierd

Recently i found myself that i get attached to things unneccesarily , if those things change or some thing bad happens i feel really sad,crooky,crap weird :(


case 1: I almost cried when Harry potter characters,Hermoine went with Ron,instead with Harry,I always thought Harry was destined to be with hermoine,and i lost half the interest in the book series since then and i do still believe that harry is destined to be with hermoine.

case 2:
Similaryly, In series "How i met you mother" two of main characters(robin and ted) whom i like to c together,well they didnt bcome couple and one of them sleeps with some one else. dats it,dats the end of the story for me, am not gonna watch dat series again in my life.


I feel stupid and lame,insane for me to get attached to these things.i know these are just serials with no connection with life,but i get attached with my full conscience. Add to this,theres is one more dark secret..if there is too much suspense i just go to end of the novel and read the final chapter,same is with movies.

some times i do feel,this is insane stupid crazy feeling,which i shuld no more get attached,but its so damn hard to get rid this.some times i feel i should bang my head in the wall.

I try to hang on things which i shuld never get attached, and i am really scared of it.. what if some thing similar happens. i should somehow get guts to face it.  I dont know why i hang on these things,basically i feel everything should end perfectly at the end..and real life is worst example of it and this scares me a lot..

Gosh i wis i could find some solution to it..

PS: Is there any chemical available to get rid of this other excess oxygen?

Current Mood: same as title
Current Music: nothing
Currently Reading: the wonder that was India
Recent Movies: angels and demons

Partner theory

Partner Theory...

Have You ever Wondered why the Life in this world stopped at only 2 sexes, Male and female?
Why there is only two things good and evil and not other,
multiplication and division
Integration and differentiation
Addition and division
Cause and effect
Mass and Energy
Matter and Anti-matter
Centrifugal and centripetal
positive and negative
two poles in Magnet

You mention anything, for almost everything in this world ,there exists something which is completly opposite of it,which compliments the other one.But there are things that exists which dont have their complimentary things such as Time,Light etc,

it is hard to believe that Time is one dimensional, there should be something which compliments time,which i think we haven't found as such. Same is with light, May be am i wrong,may be i am not wrong. but it hard to believe that there exist things in this world which doesn't have complimentary (i would call it as partner), And i believe amazing things happen when these any two partners meet,whether it be collision of proton and electron...

one postive and negative(equal magnitude) meet to form an completly new thing --> Zero

Imagine if Time has one dimension,it has to have another dimension, there should be something which is quite opposite of time, what it would be it is left for imagination.

There are lot of things we can understand if we lot bit closer,think in simple terms,there are amazing things in this world,and we have yet to decipher them.

 

 

 

coutesy:  testhyderabad.blogspot.com

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Ramblings in Mumbai part -3

continuing from where i left.

Marine Drive:

                One of the most beautiful natural features of mumbai,Located in south bombay. It is drive 5 kms long,with chowpatty(beach),high rise buildings,give mumbai another 15 years,Marine drive would give competition to Manhattan.

 

Traffic / cops.

                 They are everywhere the same,money sucking white,grey men,who spare no one,Almost every1 in mumbai follow traffic rules,especially auto wallahs, dont even dare to break any rules and most of them are scared of traffic cops.Most of them follow traffic rules,but not me,born and bought in hyd,i mind keeps aching when i have to wait for green signal even there is not even single vehicle crossing on the road,the worst part of if u have to wait for green signal even in night 00.00 hrs.might be this is partly because mumbai was a british city..city of immigrants.

 Bollywood.

             Nothing much to say, i feel havent really feel,what bollywood is like ,but i know one thing,its effect on the lifestyle of mumbai.Mumbaikars are the one of the most fashion crazy people..and i think bollywood has some role to play in here.

 

High rises.

           for many years, i havent seem a taller building than the babukhan estate in basheerbagh,come to mumbai,most apartment building easily cross 20 stories, Mumbai boosts dozens of high rises which 40+ stories,my friend says it is hard to find a city where even in suborbs u will find building which 40+ stories,this might lame for some1 whoz been to NY,Hongkong,Shanghai, but this building are  not commercial,these are residential..and i must agree, i have this stupid urge to count no of floors a building has whenever i see huge high rise..

 

BEST buses: These are as synonomous as hyd's green buses. These are all in red,and has stops 1 stop for every 250 mtrs.They criss cross every nook and corner of mumbai,must say hyd buses r much safer,bigger,better than the these buses

 

there are many things that seperates Hyderabad and mumbai but there are so many things that unites us.

I miss Hyderabad and mumbai too, neways 

one more thing for Hydearabadi..beware of Mumbai girls ;)

Current Mood: okz
Current Music: Bolo Na - Sona

Exams

As i sit and mull over,
I asked why i came here,
Wonder, i feel like this
My Heart breaks in to pieces

Whenever i see a couple
The sinking jealous feeling
shows how fickle the mind is

Times come and goes by
thinking how come a stupid guy
end up with a stunning girl
makes the mind go in swirl

A I hear the murmers in my head
Letting all to go past ahead
I stay here ,declining to go
I stood here, refusing to grow

The sound of Ignominy haunts
The Pain of failure overpowers
the fragile mind in me...
What to do..??
I am just whom i wanted to be.

So many people ,with their minds
Right in the exam's fever grip
It is so hard to find,
a soul like me..

Current Mood: DejaVu
Current Music: Rehna tu
Currently Reading: Hyperion
Recent Movies: 99

Ramblings in Mumbai Part-2

I will try to disect Mumbai through the eyes of an Hyderabadi..
Locals
Sex
Bollywood
Wannabes
Fashion Designers
Traffic cops
Best buses
High rises
Marine Drive
Taj

 

       Locals (Local train) are the arteries,viens,nerves of Mumbai city,This city runs on them, There are 3 lines, Western,central,Harbour lines, running in N-S direction.Getting on train in busy hours is like getting first show ticket of chiranjeevi's new movie(late 80's,early 90's) and that too every day is not easy task.It is the fastest,safest,smoothest way(not confirtable) to travel places in mumbai. If any1 comes to mumbai,one should go VT(CST) station,Local platform, stand on the weighing machine around 8.30 to 9.30AM,It is a most surreal image i came across in mumbai,one will so many ppl, with almost pin drop silence except the railway annoucements.I wondered how come everybody moves without even banging on each other.One write a whole book on mumbai local train..

 

Sex

As mentioned in "Maximum City" by suketu mehta, one feel the sex in the air especially during nights in Andheri,JUHU..(dont ask how it smells).Cladly dressed women,Transgenders in back alleys of Andheri,The backrooms of Dance bars,The pretty girls getting in to cars from home in wee hours,I-Pill boxes on the roads,Mass Massage parlours in beaches. Life comes back to where it started :)

 

Wannabes

                Wannabes,all i see in my place in andheri are wannabes.I dont know what drives them in to come to mumbai and try their luck even after the knowledge that chances of they hitting bollywood is less than hitting a 10 cr lottery.Seen so many wannabes trying desperately ,some selling sex, some becoming bi-sexuals,some spending dad's money, just to see themselves on the big screen(or atleast small screen).The acting courses boards overtake other hoardings.Trying despeartely to get in to eyes of prducers ,directors, Hangin on the Barista's, CCD's till wee hours, hitting gyms,joining dace classes,acting classes, belly dancing classes,watching every shit movies,waiting endlessly,going to posh discos with penny in hands,getting laid.  Life is cruel out there.

 

 

to be continued..

PS:  Wish i could bring Mumbai to Hyderabad and Hyderabad to Mumbai

 

Current Music: Indian summer -karunesh
Currently Reading: Hyperion

Ramblings in Mumbai

 

Its been  almost 11 months since i have been in Mumbai.

What a city is Mumbai,esp  for a Hyderabadi,Mumbai is a quite tough city to live in.. So, what strikes u first in Mumbai, As i steped out of the AC car in mumbai(coming from pune),is the Smell,the Smell of the Sea,yup the fish smell, and then big thing hits you the traffic.

Forget Hyderabad,Mumbai is quite Traffic choke,but suprisingly everything moves quite swiftly.In the last 11 months i noticed quite a number of things that rest of India would find hard to believe.

This is city of lights,freedom,Sex,Bollywood,Wannabes,Fashion Designers,Locals,traffic cops,Best Buses,High rises,Filthy Rich,etc.

One of the first thing that Hyderabad(read single,20's,bachelor) would find is the Women of Bombay(I prefer Bombay to mumbai) is that you hardly find women in Sarees,Salwar kameez. you will see young girls with Harem pants,Skinny jeans,Spagetti's,Tribal Accessories,a big hand bag,tattoos(not every1 has).this is so Unhyderabadi in style.

There so many things in mumbai which so Unhyderabadi like the speed at which the ppl,the city runs,You might have heard in various movies,dialogues,but the speed the city runs is faster than it is potrayed and esp. for a hyderabadi ,it is kind of bafflement.

The Locals,the ppl run so fast as if there's life in danger and it is their last day of their life,The city moves in 2 directions From North to south in morning and South to North in Evening..People hardly talk,they have only one mission reach office asap and reach home asap.

 

to b continued.

 

PS:NO offence meant to ne1

PPS:Harem pants(used in Medieval Arabs)

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Current Music: coldplay-Clocks
Currently Reading: Hyperion
Recent Movies: Good,Bad & ugly