Bitch from Hell

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orejas | 12 November, 2004 18:38

why do people have families? i dont understand.
all they do is hurt each other and there is so much taking for granted and so much more baggage than in any other relationships.
i dont understand her
i dont understand my parents
i dont understand this whole thing
i dont understand why there have to be eggshells all the time
i dont understand why i become something inferior, something irritating, something superfluous, something insignificant, seomthing that must be shushed, made to stay still in the corner or at the least completely ignored.
i dont understand why, just because she is here only for a short while, she can be allowed ot get away with nasty snide remarks and laugh them off as jokes, and when i say anything it is mean.
i dont understand why, when i pick up a book she'd left splayed out open and face-down, something our entire family is TRAINED to correct, i am policing her and am snarled at, and i dont understand why, when i get upset, SHE gets more upset and more tormented and viticmized, and when amma comes to talk to me its a big favour that shes comforting me and why i am blamed for the entire affair.
i dont understand why, now that im 22 and she is 25, she persists in acting like im 12 and shes 15 and then throws tatnrums bcos we expect her to behave like when we were children.
i dont understand why all day everyone mutters and sulks at me and follows her around. i dont understand why amma cant tlak to me when im trying.
i dont understand why i feel like i am something to be ashamed of.

i have nowhere to go. here is hell. there is hell. what do i do?

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fallen angel | 12/11/2004, 19:38

you could be Berry Berry berrrrrrrrrrrrrrry glad that she has just come to visit.

And you could write it all out, so that we would read it and smile, anyway.

I just thought being N's sister was a fun thing.



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inez | 12/11/2004, 20:38

WHOSE sister????

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fallen angel | 12/11/2004, 22:05

hahahhaa.....

I have this horrid habit of referring to your earlier posts.

So gimme the initial of her name.. and you can be "..'s" sister...

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Neurotron | 12/11/2004, 22:47

you can come to my parlour, is what u can do. :-)
cheer up re, it'll get better soon.

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inez | 12/11/2004, 23:14

fa: um...you have a GOOD memory!!! i was a lil freaked cos her initial is N. she ok far away. close she has too many issues...
Neuro: i cant go to nobody's parlour cos guess wot, i have FUCKING CAT. sigh. and no transport. as for get better yeah sure....10th december MAYBE, still have to survive darjeeling...and the intervening days...by which time... sigh.

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thesplitsong | 14/11/2004, 00:41

Atleast you're counting down the number of days.

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Ravi | 14/11/2004, 09:09

This is from a book I've been reading, hope it helps......

Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive.
(the five people you meet in heaven - by Mitch Albom)

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Ravi | 14/11/2004, 09:10

Cheer up girl!

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