THE PRINCE VILLA

"i miss her so much!!!!!!!!!"

i said to myself as i saw the missed call on my phone standin on the

platform watchin the train which was leavin the staion. the missed call

was from tht "one girl" who over the last 2 yrs had become such an

important part of my life. wid me were standin 2 more friends of her

who had come to see her off.

at tht moment i din know wat was leavin my life "my best buddy or my

love"????????

the train reached the farthest pt  i cud see and i got another missed

call from her. all the moments i had spent over the past 2 yrs were all

comin back to me as i walked out of station movin to the parkin lot.

we had met 2 yrs ago casually thru a common frnd and very soon become

gud friends." tht gal is hot!!!!!!!!" was wat i had said to myself wen

i saw for the 1st time. we spoke of everythin we cud bout our life's to

each other and discussed our failures,success, personal relatonships

etc. and supported each other. i discused my crushes wid her and she

hers and never realized tht we both were such an awesome pair.

we had fights ,we had arguments all so serious tht an observer wud say

tht we wud never patch up again but we always did as we cudn't stay

without each other. after all we were buddies!!!!! it was so awesome

wen she cutely said "sorry" after i apologized. every moment spent wid

her was special. it was gr888!!!!!!!

as she stayed alone in a hostel she wud often go to her parent's

place(out of town) for a week's holiday.tht 1 week wud be hell for me

as i wud miss her so much and the only thing which saved my day was my

1 hour STD chat wid her on the phone. but above all i knew was that

she's gonna come back but now i don't even know wen i wud meet

her???????

those night drives wid her ,her chin restin on my shoulder and she

talkin to me bout different things and givin me lectures(at times)  was

all  so awesome. and all i knew tht i wanted to spend as much time wid

her as i cud. i stil failed to recognize my feelings. but it happened

very soon.

few months before she was leavin we had a major fight and we reallly

din speak to each other for a seriously long time. wen i did speak to

her we argued and being hurt i uttered somethin like"tht felt like as

if i was very minute particle in her life wich really din affect her in

any way". we anyways patched but a few days later she handed me over a

6 page note and the whole content of hte letter was she trying to tell

ME how much i meant to her and how majorly i affected her and in it was

a small gift for me(i am not tellin u wat it was). 

she confessed in her letter tht "i am one of those very few people who

cud affect her emotionally" and lot more which i can't talk bout as it

might get boring for u guyz.  i wrote an apoligising letter which she

read in front of me. after readin the letter she cried and i wiped her

tears. moments alter she was in my arms huggin me tightly. tht day we

spent a lot of time together and the it all added up to the quality

time i have lived in my life.

it was now tht i started feelin there was somethin more than wat i

assumed was close friendship. i was fallin in love wid her and worst

part of it all i never told it to her. my freinds kept tellin to

express my feelings but i resented due to the fear of losin all wat i

had and in the process losin all the oppurtunities i was gettin to

express my feelings.

i still don't know tht shud have i told her about my feelings atleast

wen i had gone to see her off at the station. there were other frnds of

her present ,her mom was also there. she was delighted to see me as i

had told her i wont come to see her off but had pulled off alast minute

surprise. tht day we din have much to talk bout and even she, as her

other frnds around were keepn her constantly busy. all we did was

looked in to each others eyes occasionally as if we were conversing

thru our eyes.

few moments later i was standin in the platform watchin her train leave

and confused wid one question in my head "what have i lost??" and i

hope i get the answer to this question the next time i meet her.

i miss her so much man!!!!!!!!!  

Current Mood: Confused
Current Music: nothings gonna change my love for u ever!!!