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baap | 24 June 2005, 12:52amI have returned to blogging.< ?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />
Why i began to blog.
My first post i clearly remember was about Friends. It was a rather extreme and strong view on the concept of "Friends". At that point of time I was flustered by the exaggeration of the concept of Friendship, sometimes plagiarized from the popular television sitcom of the same name. People, in general, i felt were taking the concept to un-necessary extremes. They were justifying a set of misdeeds under the concept. They were violating other people's privacy and were asserting that Friendship is above all forms of privacy and reservations. I wont say that i was mistaken, on the contrary, i would say i was right to
the dot.I was although mistaken in generalizing a concept which i experienced among a very limited number of people,
ironically all of them eccentric and diverse in their own right, to a whole set of people who believed that they had strong
friendships.
I still maintain that until now, Friendship remains to be a mere concept to me. A concept which takes on many forms;
related interests, related opinions, un-related but equally proportionate responses and attitudes, kindred spirits and a flurry of other permutations. I remain to be a finitude by nature in this regard. Although i believe that human emotion is of infinite proportions, it is sadly decided by finite parameters in today's society. I know i am wrong in saying it, generally speaking. Specifically though and at least to what I have experienced, friendship is not as yet too great to take
pride in. It symbolizes a seminal point in the degradation of moralities in a lot of people's lives. Drugs, Domestic Violence, rebellion, STUPIDITY, FINANCIAL WOES. These and other such anomies, i have noticed have been caused not by Friendship per se but in simple misguidance which can be more than rectified by this very concept itself.
....hence i began to extend my writings to the public domain.
A gauntlet of penned thoughts....
Blogging was probably the best way of doing a lot of things which were before left to solitary reminisces aka MULLING.
Mulling is the worst form of a degrading and perpetual thought process which is incessant and never ceases to stop.
My blogs are artifacts to me, concrete manifestations of a predominantly visual world. The power of a word, a phrase, a sentence and a paragraph especially one created by one's own mind gives immense satisfaction, i reluctantly add, regardless of the content.
This basically sums it up:
What a single word can do!
Thrilling all the heart-strings through,
Calling forth fond memories,
Raining round hope's melodies,
Steeping all in one bright hue -
What a single word can do!
What a single word can do!
Making life seem all untrue,
Driving joy and hope away,
Leaving not one cheering ray,
Blighting every flower that grew -
What a single word can do!
The other day someone said to me while sitting in a audience, quoting from those much despised self help books; the average
human mind thinks per day 60,000 distinct thoughts. I chuckled, just to make a point to the author I deliberated on 60,001
thoughts in that instant of time.
Penning down my thoughts, expressing my opinions is something i have recently realized to but a fraction of my potential. From Submarines to Subversiveness; from AMD's to WMD's; from emotion to affliction,
everything i thought in a profound manner was typed onto something called a post. Though it was just an extract of what i actually intended to portray, it was there, it was visible, it was written.
A lull to mull....again
I stopped...blogging...i made a conscious and calculated decision that i should stray away from the public domain and resign to being content with these written records in an exclusively secret and undisclosed location. I hated it...I hate secrets, I felt i was "writing" behind my own back. That time though I perceived this differently, i was writing in a frenzy, was becoming a zealot of the font. I would sometimes, go into a trance while writing/typing and be completely oblivious to my
surroundings, something that is "extremely" and criminally uncharacteristic of me.
I am a pathological observer, to favour familiarity..for all of those who have seen the movie "SPY GAME". The time Robert Redford makes "tactical inferences" from the the imagery derived off a spoon...well you get the picture.
Anyway, i was carried away, and when i customarily read out
my blog, i found myself writing things i should have rather kept "PRIVATE". NOT SECRET, but private.
I hate to delete what i have done, to undo what has been done...(Exxcuse the circumlocution, favours melodrama...which i like!!!)
I resent it. I would never deny my expressions, so instead of stopping to BLOG...i moved to an "undisclosed location". Those scripts will be de-classified soon enough..
Thus, I began to mull...AGAIN! The mulling this time over though, was a concurrent activity to something i refer to
as an "Immortal Witness": READING. This way i was thinking, reading, comprehending, perceiving and mulling at the same time. All abutting themselves in distinct forms
Understandable and acceptable...by all means.
The return....
BATMAN...spurred me on to re-consider blogging. I saw the movie circumstantially alone, only to realise that I
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1. By robotgeek, formerly known as U | 30 Jun 2005, 1:14pm
Stranger things have happened.
Apple shifted to the Intel Architecture. The Aviator was actually a nice movie. and so on...
Who would have expected that a "Batman" movie would actually inspire someone.
Anyways, welcome back!!
And maybe it's time for a wordpress blog? :)
2. By Bigmouth | 4 Jul 2005, 1:26am
Well, you said you're back ... where are you ?