31 Jul 2004

Of me

Posted by doesitmatter in General | 6:26am

just a moment in time
the movie in your mind
put aside the whispers
filter out the doubt
look into my eyes
ignore the muted shout
don't you wish to melt away?
into the golden sun?
don't you want to whisk away,
and have a little fun?
aren't you sick of pain
and fear inside your life
all I know inside of me
I want you as my wife
I'm tired of the race
I'm ill with blank disgrace
I want the world to leave us be
I want the world to set us free
take my hand and smile
you can let those tears fall
I'll make it worth your while
and always give it all
through good and bad I'll love you
through thick and thin I'll stay
from the blinking of the sun
to the fading of the day
and in the night I'll hold you
until the sun appears
I'll take away your sorrows,
and cast away your fears
so let our love combine
and let our spirits soar
just take my hand within yours
and I'll love you evermore

Current Mood: Mooney
Current Music: kabhie kabhie

30 Jul 2004

Of her

Posted by doesitmatter in General | 5:07pm

She walks alone at night.
Trying to figure out why it's so hard to fight,
Why she has always tried to suppress the thoughts in her head,
the ones that wish she was dead.

It seems that all was cold and dark along that path to her heart.
It seems that no one could see through the mask,
could see the hidden struggle
and everything goes back to the start

The beginning when all fell apart
the time when all broke down,
and the tears could not be heard,
but the pain lingered on,
gasping for air as it sucked all joy from her heart.

She could not even whisper her longing to be held,
her longing to forget,
her longing to be heard and loved.
She could not even face her own body,
her own face as she woke.

She was alone
She was alone because no one would ever know what made her cry,
and die and turn to ashes inside.
Because the silence was her only hope,
her mask of joy.

To understand -
She lost herself that day.
She lost all trust.
It was too much for her small heart to take,
too much for her small mind to forget.
Can it ever go away?

wont it?

depends on us aint it, it will take us down as much as we allow it to. The more we hide the more it envelops and overwhelms. Damn, the fear of letting go.

Current Mood: Thoughtful
Current Music: Neela aasman so gaya

28 Jul 2004

When You Are Old

Posted by doesitmatter in General | 11:44am

When you are old and grey and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;

How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true,
But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face;

And bending down beside the glowing bars,
Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.

he already said it better than i could and this mood thing is irritating, goddamn, i might not want to tell what my mood at the moment is.

Current Mood: Destructive
Current Music: unsent - alanis