I wish... but I just exist!
Stand-Alone Dreamer | 30 November 2004, 6:43pm
I wish I had faith - I wish I had the courage to follow danger as lightheartedly as the sparrows I saw, following the hawk into the ravine
That sound - Yes, I can hear; one hundred birds singing, but all I can see is the tree
I'm walking and the street is loud; i cannot hear the words of my teacher
I close my eyes yet the sun still shines
I look at the stars - Stay still and listen carefully; you can hear the music from
the moment when matter escaped from light ten million years after the beginning of time
eighteen billion years before this was written
some people say that there is an end to space and time
and that we can't concieve it because of the boundaries of our mind
that it is unthinkable that it is in the realm of the metaphysical
yet perhaps this is all imagined...
Just exist and it gives us free space
Current Mood: Relieved
Current Music: kaisi hai yeh rut ki jis mein - DCH
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Man among Men!
Stand-Alone Dreamer | 20 November 2004, 3:44am
Its very much a routine! I wonder how I (for that matter every soul around) manage to turn up everyday with the same lethargy, same PJ's and same smoking area and that damn same coffee cup and discuss the same team building outing plan that we have been discussing for what..three months now!; and still vehemently argue that life is fun; hilarious - Have they gone out of thier minds!?!?!
Recently I had been too tired to work at night; all I did was listen to music, read a little, read blogs, maybe draw on my 'dreams' sketchbook. I am a little behind schedule still It felt good. Listening to music on my headphones while I work makes me feel at peace with myself and the world. I realize most of my anxieties come from my postponing of things. As soon as I get down to work on them, the hole in the stomach disappears. Working at night, I feel a man among men again.
To have something to look for, that keeps me going. I enjoy expectation. I dream about these virtual horizons of my life. Yesterday we felt economically kamikaze and went for sushi with my friend and got fortune cookies. Mine read: "a door closes; another opens"..
Current Mood: Happy Indeed!
Current Music: La La La La La - Whatever
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