Being Yourself
enigma | General | 24 May 2005, 12:30pm
Please excuse me for i cant write well, but could not resist writing what i felt.
The past week had been a sort of an eye opener for me in a few aspects. Me as a person has always believed in being myself and stating what i felt, this belief of mine has hurt me more in the past few days.
I always believed that happiness was a state of mind. It is not caused simply by entertaining your whims. It is not lived by accumulating moments of pleasure, but i believe its being in love with living, a reward for achieving a good character and good values in life.I am a person who enjoys the little things which life offers me, rather than, aspiring for bigger objectives.
One becomes a target for not accepting what others want you to do, their usual complaint being( why start off with a "NO"). They want us to be proactive all the time and say a "YES" even if that is not what we want to do. I bore a lot of silent torture for saying a NO
Your friends suddenly dont seem to identify with you, they feel you are blaming them for everything, even if you never had those intentions. Nowadays its better to be unconcerned, ignorant and artificial when it comes to handling people. I have to learn a lot and i am beginning to realise that. I am a person who thinks a lot about people, rather than about myself.
People would realise my worth at some point of time and then it would be too late i guess.
I dont know if i am being able to express myself properly, but i sometimes feel i want to change and be like others, It hurts a lot to be different and believe me its painful.
Hmmmmm but again, is that what i want to be? I guess "NO" because then again i realised that i have people around me who like me for who i am. I dont want to disappoint them by changing myself.
Current Mood: Thoughtful
Current Music: Its my life
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