Ecstatic Failure

9 Months.

rock_26iin | 19 February, 2008 14:41

Over 9 months now, I have loved you, hated you and hated myself for loving you. 9 months I've been torn apart between remembering you and forgetting you. Been torn apart. And all I asked of you, was to love me back, to trust me and be honest to me...and that's what you didn't do. When I told you, the only thing I can't stand is your lies. Then why I ask you? And you have no reply. In fact, you're not even reading this. I'm alone at 4 AM, still thinking of you. After the lies, the insults and the mistrust...still thinking of you.

And I'm still willing to give you everything I have. Still willing to forget everything and say to you I love you as long as I get to hear it back. Still willing to cleanse everything away for you.

I still love you. I don't know what that makes me and don't think I care.