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Eigengrau - The Darkness Within

Life Chapters | By Aditya | 2015 Trackbacks (0) Add comment   

1.German for "intrinsic grey"
2.the colour seen by the eye in perfect darkness

1.unable to see 
2.lacking perception, awareness, or judgement

It was ironic that I revealed my true self in a pitch black room. In that moment of blindness I surrendered myself - I was open, bare and unguarded and I let her plunge deep inside my thoughts, hold me tight and purge me of my fears.

You always need a light to guide you, to help you on your path to finding your purpose and make you a better person than you are. And in that unlit space I found my guiding light. In that darkness I saw what I hadn't all my life - I could perceive myself, feel more personally aware of who I am or was.

They say that it is safer and easier to surrender yourself to a stranger, but she wasn't one - or maybe she was for one last time in the darkness that engulfed us. And in that hour of blindness, she was my light at the end of tunnel and has led me to realize what would complete me and illuminate my world.

"We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark; the real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light." - Plato

Stories We Will Never Tell - II

Chapters | By Aditya | 2013 Trackbacks (0) Comments (1)   

Dateline - September 2013

Fact - All emotional pain lasts for twelve minutes, anything longer than that is self-inflicted.

They were sitting on the couch in the living room. The television was on mute but was showing random songs on MTV. Her head was on his chest and his fingers were entangled in hers. He slowly used his other hand to brush her hair from her face and the bright images of the television lit up her already bright and beautiful smile.

She slowly moved her ears to where his heart was and listened to his steady heart beats. And then she looked up at him into his eyes and told him that the moment right there made her feel safe; and that it felt like nothing bad could ever happen to her.

He smiled and played with her soft black hair while she continued staring at him. And he could clearly understand what was happening. He had seen the look before, in many different people in similar situations. He slowly saw her face give a shy smile and then as faintly as could be discernible the tears came out of her dark brown eyes.

He knew that this day was going to come. And he knew where those tears flowed from - they flowed from the darkest corners and depths of her heart. All her sorrow, her pain and her heart breaks. All those memories, she masked from the world with her smiles and laughs, slowly came out of her eyes in the form of tear drops.

And he knew the value of those tears - he knew he had earned them and all those people who claimed to know her actually knew nothing. He had figured her out one month after they met and this moment right here was a culmination of all the trust she had in him.

And right at that moment he felt a rush of anger and depression well up in his heart. He was used to the tear drops and the deafening silences when words became irrelevant and superfluous. And he knew the only reason he cared for her was because he couldn't avoid her, he loved her yet he couldn't trust her with his own tears.

 When you have so many stories of pain and suffering, the sorrows of others seem like droplets compared to your own ocean of sadness. Yet he never shared any of them. All his so called friends knew nothing of him. His past was unknown and his future bleak. He lived from moment to moment and he kept going from one sad story to another searching for a sadness which could make his petrified heart weep.

And then he slowly looked back into her teary eyes and as she smiled back at him with all of her heart, he slowly rubbed the tears from her cheeks and laid her to sleep. And just when she was thinking that he was perfect, his mind told him to move on in search of deeper abysses!


Chapters | By Aditya | 2010 Trackbacks (0) Comments (1)   

Vaticinium ex eventu

The lights were fading,
And the shadows vanishing,
The windows were pale and gloomy,
And there was a stillness in the air.

When darkness descended
And at the ascend of obscurity.
While the world was numb,
And even the night sound asleep.

At a time when God had departed,
And before The Prophet arrived.
Just after we were still us.
Just before we weren't we.

A child was born
The Chosen One,
He was “I”…
The Prodigal Son.

And I is not me
It is “I” as in “We”.
And this is the tale
Of every female and male.

The lights have faded,
And the shadows vanished.
The windows are still pale,
And in the air is a chill.

And So It Begins...

Chapters | By Aditya | 2010 Trackbacks (0) Add comment   

"This is the end...Beautiful friend
This is the end...My only friend - the end.
Of our elaborate plans, the end.
Of everything that stands, the end."
- The Doors

An End without an End.

Chapter 7

He wakes up. Looks into the mirror. A man filled with anger and rage. He had to be born.

He tries to remember, to think of where he is now and how he got there.

But this is all he knows - There are jobs to be finished. Tasks which need to be executed. Someone's revenge to be avenged - Someone's.

Deep inside he knows that he will never be content. Self inflicted malice.

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