2 Nov 2004
Echoes in the Darkness
the off-white blankness beckons again
inviting the smoothened flow of pen
neat, lined, single-ruled sheets
waiting to absorb vacuous troubled state
frantic words,
poured out,
trip over themselves
scratch against the paper
in their haste to escape
from suffocating, constricting mind-brain
but it's been done
too many times
i guess i am immune to the cure
the unburdening on paper fails to soothe
the serenity i crave
remains imprisoned somewhere
behind the rib-cage
screaming fultilely, echoing the darkness.
-- written just now.
While I was writing this, I had the image of my mind being a closed place with pitch-black darkness, and my thoughts shimmering like ghosts in there... surrounding me, mocking me.
-- I read it over objectively and realised how totally depressing it is. But I cannot stop the craziness. It's like the fascinating absorption I had for staring at Veerappan's morbid bullet-hole-in-the-head photo on the front pages. Sometimes the mind is a sick place.
Current Music: A dog howling outside, low full-throated howls
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By diva
2 Nov 2004, 7:35am [ Reply ]
sure it is depressing...but very well written!!
By Neurotron
2 Nov 2004, 9:45am [ Reply ]
Oh my.
Very nice, as was the last post.
Morbid fascination of the sick mind...hmmm...interesting.
By tabrez
2 Nov 2004, 12:42pm [ Reply ]
so u did post it. had a feeling you would.
By Pye
2 Nov 2004, 3:38pm [ Reply ]
Thanks diva and Neurotron. Interesting, yes. It's strange how I can look at something like this from outside myself, dispassionately.
tabrez, the relative anonymity helps. And how do you know it's the same?
By tabrez
3 Nov 2004, 2:13am [ Reply ]
i just do.
By James Joyce
7 Nov 2004, 4:23pm [ Reply ]
Oh my... Why the blues? Nice piece, all the same. Indeed so :)
By James Joyce
7 Nov 2004, 4:25pm [ Reply ]
By the way, I put up another poem (WIFE) on caferati yesterday, take a look!
By James Joyce
7 Nov 2004, 8:46pm [ Reply ]
I just had a look at your blogspot blog - left a comment on 'Monochrome Thought'.
By James Joyce
8 Nov 2004, 12:49am [ Reply ]
And yes, I've joined up here too! http://riverrun.fullhydblogs.com/
By Pye
8 Nov 2004, 9:46pm [ Reply ]
Glad you liked this. :)
And thanks so much for the comment on Monochrome Thought. That's one of my best ones. :)
By James Joyce
12 Nov 2004, 12:31am [ Reply ]
Pye, new poem on caferati.
http://caferati.blogspot.com/2004/11/employee-census.html