Ego

Charming_Light | 22 March, 2005 16:25

Ego...like many other emotions, within us which we do not realize. Its a very mystic feeling that can strike anyone and ruin them to any extent. This feeling of mine 'Ego' has been a very gud friend of mine rather I would say I hav been a very gud friend of it. I never used to allow anyone to damage my Ego. I have been cherishing this feeling of mine, giving it different names.....bluntness, self-esteem, audacity and what not? I did neither care for my parents nor my close pals as long as I was with my Ego. I wud prefer hurting myself but not my ego. Thanks to my family and friends to brook my eccentricities.

Anybody who tries to inflict my ego was my enemy. I was never a happy-heart with many grudges within me, with so much of loathing that was mysteriously making me loose my friends, who were supposed to have been my gud friends forever. That proves again that none other than family members could bear other's oddities. I was insecure whenever I used to rake on these old issues without thinking about what's going wrong with in me. As somebody said 'the mind can make a heaven out of hell or a hell out of heaven'.

I hated myself when I had to put down my ego aside to say 'sorry' to someone, albiet theres no mistake on my side. But what did I loose saying so? Let me too quench some one else's thirst for ego. I pity that person who's still ignorant to realize her/ his own feeling of 'ego', whos got the royalty of getting a sorry from me. But I no more repent or feel sorry for this. I care a darn for it. I do not atone any more, as long as it makes me feel lighter and happier. I never knew that its this easy to be a happier, mightier heart.

To many am a big fool who thinks beyond the boundaries lost in a fairyland. But I am my own role model who inspires me along my path of life. Again this is not any sort of vanity. Its zus a way of introspecting me, myself and my world. I no longer hold any contempts, I am no longer snobbish, but all that I am is with a more contended heart that sans hatred. Hmm...cheers to me!!!