Have I finally crossed the line from being a kid to growing up? Maybe, the events leading to this post might well make me believe in it.
Blaring trance music, a riot of colors from the blinking lights and the various concealed lighting thingies, the myriad expressions around - grinning/thoughtful/smiling/melancholic...so many people, so many stories, so much alcohol. Some dance to remember, some drink to forget...some post blogs far away from the madding music. There's a party rocking down stairs, which I've given a miss - as I always do. What I post here is just to jot down as a milestone in my life, its time to do a "Things I've learnt" post.
Things I've learnt : January 14-31, 2006
-- Being through tough times does not necessarily make a person tougher. Its not what you've been through that matters, its how you came through.
-- I'll never let go of things I love doing. Even if it means doing a near thankless job.
-- An expected loss can sometimes be better than an unanticipated victory when you learn more from it.
-- Losing hurts, twice hurts more. Losing unfairly hurts even longer.
-- A quote from an old post: "someday u'll look back on this day and laugh" - syko, April 11th, 1:36PM. Someday I'll look back on this week and smile, I hope.
-- People, no matter how intellectually balanced they may seem, will never behave as individuals when thrown in to a community atmosphere. Research should be done on this, the results can be quite stunning. Herd mentality rules, everywhere.
-- There are few individuals, even fewer thinking ones.
-- Never have I believed more that the journey is more important than the destination - especially when you don't get there.
-- I have actually stopped being the 'popular' guy. Wow.
-- Thinking about one thing over and over and over again will not make it better. Moving on is f____ing difficult.
-- This place is so full of oddities, its getting difficult to keep a track of 'em.
-- Sometimes it pays to just dance. No strings attached, just. Maybe I'll do that someday.
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Most of what I wrote above may not make sense to a lot of people reading this, the others will simply not read it. :) By not putting down anything explicitly I'm using this blog for what its worth - a nice lil milestone to carve a few lines on.
This is my first post in 2006, I never really said goodbye to 2005. Should do that. If only to say a proper Hi to 2006 - we haven't gotten along very well so far. *shrugs*
This is Payne signing out.
Good morning new day.
Current Mood: Heartbroken
Current Music: Alanis Morissette - Uninvited
1 Feb 2006, 5:31pm
hey joe,
i think i know wht u r talking abt...well sometimes things happen for unexplicable reasons...just move on....hehehe gyan from the most unexpected quarters..huh...well we'll still keep exchanging bored looks at each other in class and keep making faces :)
3 Feb 2006, 10:10pm
Thinking about one thing over and over and over again will not make it better. Moving on is f____ing difficult.
... now dat is one truth that is making much sense to me rite dis moment.
3 Feb 2006, 10:31pm
what?? obviously you don't expect nice and cozy words from me.... its just that i want to see ur ass on the dance floor in the next party...
"-- Sometimes it pays to just dance. No strings attached, just. Maybe I'll do that someday."...and plz change the look of ur blog...of all the people i expect "YOUR" blog to look good..(forget good now its UGLY to the core)
4 Feb 2006, 2:21pm
yep... makes u realize why the world is the way it is...
on another note, business jargon makes more sense now doesnt it... cartels, hedging, arbitrage... :D
4 Feb 2006, 6:49pm
Looks like you u've realised the old sayings (some of them u've mentioned in your blog) dont hold a stand in the real world.. so your learning life the hard way! So what..i totally agree wid u, its better investing time on your blog than a measy party!;)
4 Feb 2006, 8:01pm
Totally agree with Manan here...Just a nice bit of addition..
You still are the kid of our block :)
8 Feb 2006, 6:52pm
can't blive i dint reply to all these comment...
@siby: Pleasant surprise to see you commenting away here. :D
@June: Thank you....
@Manan: B__AST+____ARD__!!! this blog is the way it is cuz i want it to remain the way it is.
@deepti: been a while since i've seen u here. :)
@Angel: a post on blog is better than 2 in the mind. :-p
@Mahesh: dude, u actually put in ur e-mail addy...=))
9 Feb 2006, 12:21am
-- This place is so full of oddities, its getting difficult to keep a track of 'em.
Not really babe... they're all part of 'B-31X'
12 Feb 2006, 10:39am
i'm sorry it didn't happen Sprain!why didn't you mail me and tell me saala?