dejected.. :(
Johnny | 26 May 2004, 1:13pmWat is life? wat is death? Why do ppl have to die...? And imagine how depressing is it to digest the fact that one of ur loved ones is no more... a true frnd close to the heart is no more.., and that it was an act of felo-de-se.
dehi nityam avadhyo 'yam
dehe sarvasya bharata
tasmat sarvani bhutani
na tvam socitum arhasi
Gita says you need not grieve for any creature, cuz the soul is eternal. But is there life after death? If there is where and how can i find the same soul? How can i get back my friend.
It makes me feel so guilty dat i wasnt able to identify the impending disaster. I wasnt in touch with her for the last two months. If i was, maybe i cud have stopped it. I cud have averted the mind.
How powerful can a mind get? Defying all the logic, which is its own child. :(
I m still in a state of shock. I cant sleep, i cant eat, i cant do anything normally now.. Atleast for a few more days i wont be able to. I spoke to her just 2 days before the tragedy, and i cant get the sweet melancholy outta my ear drums yet. It is haunting me... She was happy, or maybe she was pretending to be happy.. I hate the geographical boundaries, which made me not be there for her, in the time of need.
I hate Death. I hate the MIND. It is the culprit, assisted by the heartless HEART. Both together in their fight for supremacy, make a persons life miserable... ultimatley causing irreversible loss to others.
Why is there anything called life? Why is there a universe? Why is there a GOD? why does something called somethin exist? Cant there be nothing...
Current Mood: Heartbroken
Current Music: The silence is killing me. :(
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1. By Neurotron | 26 May 2004, 2:13pm
I'm so sorry for your loss, Johnny. I know how you feel...
Creation is the ultimate act of selfishness. You exist. Here and now. Period. Nothing is yours and you don't belong to anybody either. The human experience is what you should look to gain...
Time is the healer, but time moves on...
2. By Aran | 26 May 2004, 2:50pm
So sorry about that Johnny. But you do know that life is not permanent. Just enjoy all the things you had with her, when she was here with you. I am sure you would not give that up for anything. Pain dulls and in time you only feel it in the weaker moments. It will become a strength rather than a wound in time. Hope you feel better soon. Have faith in yourself. :)
3. By Vj | 26 May 2004, 9:42pm
Johnny, I can understand what you must be going thru', having lost a friend myself a couple of months ago. But then there are many things that are just not in our control, however much we may not like to accept. She, your dear friend, is gone. And nothing survives death. So, feel down if you must, grieve if you must; but get back to life. What is more important is the fact that you had been a good friend to her, that you held her with high esteem. Imagine that moment when she must've felt her nearing to death and remembered you with deep contentment and happiness! THAT moment is worth more than anything else. Treasure that and love everybody and live in joy. That way, she'll always live with you.
I'm sure you know all this, ...but just thought I'd do my bit as a friend. Take care! May her soul rest in eternal peace!
4. By Johnny | 27 May 2004, 11:28pm
Thanx Aran, Vj and Neurotron for the consoling words... But i guess its not that easy.. Well life must go on. Thanx again.