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1 Jul 2004

My best friend thinks I am an angel!

Posted by dawn in General | 4:28pm


‘Ouchhhh ouchhhhh…my tummy hurts’…. he kept repeating that….ouch ouchhhh..
Apparently my dear friend and some of his other friends couldn’t resist the ‘chicken blah blah’ being served (I’m not sure of what they had eaten) and now had fallen sick! Now this guy was supposed to help me with an exam the next day instead I was attending to him ! He was burning up… And the fact that I had a goddamn important exam the next day didn’t cross my mind… I just wanted him to get better…
Some people matter so much to us…
I could do the craziest and weirdest of all things to make him me feel really important (he’s my best friend) … and then there are those times when I am put on ignore (thanks to his never-ending list of girlfriends or the girls he’s trying to impress, there is hardly any scope for me to go up on his list of priorities!)..… I feel like taking a boulder and breaking his head with it!
I have this feeling that I have always been there for him, be it when he had exams or had lost a loved one, or when he was going thru a broken relationship.. N he has been there for me in his own way.. but I keep telling myself that it is just not enough.. all the good he has ever done somehow jus gets blocked on my memory and is as good as he has done nothing.
The remorse of memory is the pain of having failed to enjoy yourself. Have u ever come to a time in which u looked back upon the past, and learned how little u had valued it? To find that days were happy when days are gone, to learn that one is passing through Elysium and not know it- that is one of the saddest of all experiences!
It is the little words we speak, the lil thoughts we think, the lil things we do or leave undone, the lil moments we waste or use wisely, the lil temptations, which we yield to or overcome- the lil things of every day that make or mar our future!
And too often we look upon the blurred side of actions- yes; of people too…we are continually misinterpreting people. There is a flower side in many an act, which we condemn because we only see the blurred side! (Like I always keep thinking he is inconsiderate and doesn’t care bout my feelings. Or maybe he thinks I don’t even have any feelings!!!!) Boy…I could go on n on..
But for now I find my contentment n consolation in that he probably thinks I am an Angel…u know… Angels are not fitted for sympathy; there is nothing in Angel life or angel nature to interpret struggle or pain!! Phew!! It is such a herculean task to stay positive all the time..but... Errr…for the day I chose to be an angel:)...



Current Mood: Confused
Current Music: har gadi badal rahi hain


15 Comments | "My best friend thinks I am an angel!" »

  1. By viha

    1 Jul 2004, 5:28pm [ Reply ]

    yes i agree with u...it is the lil things that matter the most...wish there were more people who cud understand this!good work!

  2. By martiandevil

    1 Jul 2004, 6:14pm [ Reply ]

    so true, its the little things which add up and turn into big things

  3. By Aran

    1 Jul 2004, 6:41pm [ Reply ]

    Just a smile for you. :)

  4. By wildhydgirl

    1 Jul 2004, 6:43pm [ Reply ]

    ya there are times wen u get pissed of if ur best frnd gives his/her gf/bf more improtance but still remember they will always turn to us wen there is a problem..:)stay an angel no matter wat

  5. By Nara

    1 Jul 2004, 9:58pm [ Reply ]

    just a smile for you :)

  6. By anna pantulu

    1 Jul 2004, 10:01pm [ Reply ]

    so moral of story is dont eat chicken.unless u want angels to play mz nightingale.where is the chicken shop??

  7. By dawn

    1 Jul 2004, 10:07pm [ Reply ]

    ha ha...i dont know where the chicken shop is...but i will find it out for u anna pantulu n thnx viha, aran, martiandevil, wildhydgirl n nara...i find ur responses so encouraging...:)

  8. By kiran

    1 Jul 2004, 10:16pm [ Reply ]

    i know wat u mean by im never on his list of priorities...yikes!..all guys are same... my best friend does the same to me!!

  9. By fahad

    1 Jul 2004, 10:18pm [ Reply ]

    wish i cud have some one like u by my side

  10. By posh

    2 Jul 2004, 10:06pm [ Reply ]

    gr8 work dawn...this is even better than d previous ones..keep goin

  11. By tabrez

    3 Jul 2004, 1:58am [ Reply ]

    Giving people the benefit of doubt is definately the way to go.After ever hardship there always comes a healing. One other thing i would like u to consider ..........are you maybe selling yoruself short with being with this guy in the first place. You seem to have a good head on your shoulders!

  12. By kaaki

    3 Jul 2004, 9:31pm [ Reply ]

    It takes pleanty to be an angel esp if a we try . Think you built for it???

  13. By dawn

    3 Jul 2004, 9:41pm [ Reply ]

    wat do u think kaaki? am i?

  14. By nina

    13 Jul 2004, 9:23pm [ Reply ]


    nice post....

  15. By nina

    13 Jul 2004, 9:23pm [ Reply ]


    nice post....

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