17 Oct 2005, 10:14pm
When a vow is made to never comment...
Posted by Script Writer | Category [ General ]Comments (31) | Trackbacks (0)
Being me, I am cynical. Being me, I am sarcastic. Being me, I am vain. Being me, I am grotesque. Being me, I am superfluous. Being me, I am self-righteous. Being me, I am satanic. Being me, I am verbose. Being me, I am gloomy. Most of all, though, being me, I am me. It goes with the territory of being me.
What I realised, though, right about now, is that I may have set the record for the most occurrences of 'I' and 'me' in one paragraph. This is no mean feat, even for me who always puts 'I' before anyone else. Anyone except my blog audience though. See, just how much I care about them? I actually managed to use 'though' three times in my post already. Never before have I put myself to this level of decadence and depravity. I may re-use words of my previous posts, but I never ever do that for the current post.
It is for that very reason that I use cheaper substitutes like 'however', 'but', 'nevertheless', 'notwithstanding', 'although', and any of the million more that a quick search through thesaurus.com throws up. That I did not search this time is attributed solely to a certain blog audience of mine who had vowed never to comment on my blog again. That and the fact that the vow was broken within two hours of it being taken.
Somehow, I like it when people go back on their words. It may seem to be the easiest thing to do. How difficult would it be to say something and then not do it? This is where most of us err. For all that we may have become, there are still those among us who find it extremely difficult to part with their integrity. Even those that already have done so, have gotten there with tremendous dedication and commitment. I lucked out here. I had none to begin with. So there arose no question of my ever having to part with it.
That did raise a much more serious concern. The bar had been set really low. Could I ever hope to slither from right underneath it? And, voila! I not only managed to do that but I continue doing it - setting the bar lower and still snaking my way across.
All that I have said now, I already have many a time. But it was important that I did it again. For even if it may not be apparent, I do care about those who choose to comment on my blog. And I did not wish that a certain someone put herself (I am guessing the gender here, and even if I am not I would be using non-sexist language) through the enormous effort of sifting through archives of my posts to decpiher all that this one post managed to capture.
Current Mood: Gloomy
Current Music: Garbage - The world is not enough...
What I realised, though, right about now, is that I may have set the record for the most occurrences of 'I' and 'me' in one paragraph. This is no mean feat, even for me who always puts 'I' before anyone else. Anyone except my blog audience though. See, just how much I care about them? I actually managed to use 'though' three times in my post already. Never before have I put myself to this level of decadence and depravity. I may re-use words of my previous posts, but I never ever do that for the current post.
It is for that very reason that I use cheaper substitutes like 'however', 'but', 'nevertheless', 'notwithstanding', 'although', and any of the million more that a quick search through thesaurus.com throws up. That I did not search this time is attributed solely to a certain blog audience of mine who had vowed never to comment on my blog again. That and the fact that the vow was broken within two hours of it being taken.
Somehow, I like it when people go back on their words. It may seem to be the easiest thing to do. How difficult would it be to say something and then not do it? This is where most of us err. For all that we may have become, there are still those among us who find it extremely difficult to part with their integrity. Even those that already have done so, have gotten there with tremendous dedication and commitment. I lucked out here. I had none to begin with. So there arose no question of my ever having to part with it.
That did raise a much more serious concern. The bar had been set really low. Could I ever hope to slither from right underneath it? And, voila! I not only managed to do that but I continue doing it - setting the bar lower and still snaking my way across.
All that I have said now, I already have many a time. But it was important that I did it again. For even if it may not be apparent, I do care about those who choose to comment on my blog. And I did not wish that a certain someone put herself (I am guessing the gender here, and even if I am not I would be using non-sexist language) through the enormous effort of sifting through archives of my posts to decpiher all that this one post managed to capture.
Current Mood: Gloomy
Current Music: Garbage - The world is not enough...
18 Oct 2005, 8:20pm
MR WRITER-when you bought up integrity you have agin left a lot of questions unanswered, including which part of "Being" you wrote that particular paragraph. In response to your final para..only one word comes to mind WHATEVER!
18 Oct 2005, 10:16pm
Pity, twigrl! Apparently, vowels are not the only things you miss out. There is no 'particular' part about being me. There is all of me, culminated into one seamless whole that make me what I am.
And, I don't grudge your 'WHATEVER', for even if I have said it many a time before this is when I think I should state it again. I am firmly against child abuse of any form whatsoever.
19 Oct 2005, 9:57pm
twigrl, I'm sad. You did not get the meaning of the last paragraph. He said he cares about you! It's right there - part of the second line and start of the third. Read it. He wrote an entire blog post in honour of you. And you... you could reply to him with only one word? Ah! Such is life Scripto. You win some, you lose some. And some just bludgeon you with their WHATEVERs.
19 Oct 2005, 10:37pm
Yes, Aran. Sad is life. Sadder it becomes still when the people in whose honour you make a blog post do not acknowledge you. But I will take my learnings from it. twigrl has taught me to move on, even if this time I doubt she is going to.
20 Oct 2005, 12:29am
Mr writer thats the best lesson one can learn in life...i am glad i was the one for ya. Just learn not to be sad when moving on..it makes it all worth it.
Aran! what's up where have you been.
Thanx Mr writer!...
20 Oct 2005, 11:07am
twigrl, I am not sure if that is the best lesson in life. I would rather not be run over at all.
But speaking of lessons, you would do well to learn one yourself. And it is not as difficult as preferring never being run over to moving on every time you are. It simply involves the usage of two very simply elements - vowels and punctuation. You would be surprised at the potential they have to transform the meaning of your writing.
And, to put it in very vernacular English, mention not. :)
20 Oct 2005, 9:24pm
Ah ya you can play safe as much as you can but in life you can never play safe enough to not be run over and if you are playing really hard to be safe then you will miss out on enjoying life or just life.
When it comes to punctuation -Mr. Writer it was never my thing and I highly doubt that my mind can ever comprehend the usage of all that comma, period, exclamation, semi colon…and the list goes on. So, when reading my comments you make the usage of your knowledge to make them more meaningful.
20 Oct 2005, 11:54pm
twigrl, what makes you think I want to live my life? What makes you think I am not happy just having it pass me by? Most importantly, what makes you think?
And what else have I been doing but overworking my grey matter to make sense of your punctuation-devoid posts?
23 Oct 2005, 2:18pm
Oh boy...emotions run high on this post and all the comments.
-->I like ppl who go back on their word too....coz they tell me that I am not alone and that a brotherhood of oath breakers stand by me.
"One must, it is true, forgive one's enemies. But not before they have been hanged."
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23 Oct 2005, 2:51pm
LordArthas, I really do not know whether you posted a comment on my blog because you thought it was worth it or because you were looking for some free advertising space for your newly created blog.
Either way, or even both, I am impressed. Because if it is the former, then you have appeased my vanity, and if it is the latter then you have slithered and crawled to get yourself noticed.
24 Oct 2005, 2:33am
Oh man! Mr. Writer you really should go and see the psychiatrist right away. What kind of person would not want to live his own life? What kind of person would be happy to let his life go by? These questions of yours make me worry. I just can’t believe that you are saying that you hate yourself and you don’t value your life. Oh oh! Mr. writer all your symptoms indicate that you should be diagnosed with bipolar depression. Please consult your psychiatrist immediately if you have one if not please look it up in the yellow book, I am pretty sure you can find some well qualified doc’s in there.
When it comes to “thinking” Mr. Writer I am a little stingy about it. What can I say.
24 Oct 2005, 3:15pm
Twigrl, I'm really interested in your diagnosis from a purely psychological point of view. What exactly is bipolar about his depression?
24 Oct 2005, 10:37pm
Say no more, twigrl. Not using a question mark at the end of a question is testimony enough to how much you do not think.
And, yes. What exactly is bipolar about it?
25 Oct 2005, 9:46am
Let me say a pinch of both...but advertising was a primary concern of mine.LOL
25 Oct 2005, 3:40pm
LordArthas, some of the ounce of respect I had for you (and that despite a grotesgue punctuation error in your nick) vanished when I read your blog. The remaining simply disappeared the moment I read your comment.
I have this dislike, no supreme hatred, for 'LOL'. People just do not know when to use the term. There is such a thing called shutting your mouth up when you do not know what to say. Surprisingly, it pays to do that.
27 Oct 2005, 9:22am
Aran! It’s not about fighting to be good at nothing, but it’s more about how much will you value someone who doesn’t excel at something. I totally agree that you are the only one with yourself all the time. But, really do you really need to “excel” or be good at something to accept yourself in your own eyes. Will you not see yourself as acceptable if you are not good at something? I think the ultimate question over becomes how much do you really value a human being without any capabilities to excel at something. So, do you value somebody because of their abilities not because that somebody has a soul, a body who is a part of humanity?
I just hate that we as a society focus so much at being able to be better at things that we don’t appreciate the person who doesn’t excel at what society regards as “the way to be”. I literally have the ultimate hatred, especially for the word “dumb”…which is pretty commonly used in the Indian society. “DUMB” I think is basically used by people who are ignorant, who can not think out of the box and try not to understand the perceptive of other human being.
Mr. Writer I really apologize for using your space hope you don’t mind. Can not really fit all that in the little box. Also, Mr. Writer please make up your mind you either ask me a question or you ask me to shush.
27 Oct 2005, 8:16pm
Twigrl, you do not need to excel at anything to accept yourself in your own eyes. I think you'll accept yourself if you're kind of an ok person too. But to like yourself, I think you'll need to have something more than what is needed for mere acceptance. Much of this is very subjective and I accept that I do have higher standards for myself than I do for others... in the sense that I expect much more from myself in terms of getting to be a better person. And so why shouldn't everyone else? Why should a person just lie there and expect to be liked for his soul, his humanity? Is it really his by his own making? How much of himself is in his soul or his humanity? What makes him different from the six billion other people? Or should I like or love each one of those 6 billion the same just because they happen to be born humans with a soul and 'humanity'?
I do not judge people much. But when I see someone who can be so much more than what he allows himself to be, its sad. Such is the case with you, right here. You're not ignorant. You're not dumb. You've proved that you're intelligent and capable of putting your thoughts across very well, and if putting them across in a better way can be done, by using language as it should be used, then why aren't you setting your sights on that? Why should you want to be satisfied with what you have achieved and rest there, saying things like 'punctuation is not my thing'. What exactly are you fighting against? You just fight the norms because they happen to be norms? Is there really a reason for your rebellion?
Lastly, I do realise that what I consider important may not be important to you. You most likely like yourself for other things, not the perfect punctuation acheived by Scripto here. And that's perfectly ok by me. But as I said, I thought you could be more than what you are now.
27 Oct 2005, 8:24pm
Dear Twigrl
Believe me, it was not my intent to ask you to shush. I realise that it might have sounded that way. Damn, this interface for not having emoticons!
And please, use as much of my space as you want. It is not like I pay for the diskspace myself. Let the guys at fullhyd bother with that :D. Let us do our bit in using up gigabytes upon gigabytes of diskspace all around the world, slowing down networks and clogging bandwidths.
30 Oct 2005, 11:20am
im curious about your obsession with grammer..where does that stem from?I to think its important , being the bridge between syntax and semantics , but not THAT important.Im curious to hear your reasons ...
30 Oct 2005, 12:48pm
passer-by, it is disturbing that you underestimate the importance of grammar. Please sample these two sentences:
1. Take the radio out of the car and throw it at passer-by.
2. Throw the car radio at passer-by.
Sentence 1 is ambiguous. You do not know what is hitting you - the radio or the car. Sentence 2 also ensures you get hit. But at least you have more chances of surviving that hit.
31 Oct 2005, 12:59am
I can respond to all you question Aran! but right now i do not have a heart to do so, after reading MR. writers current current post.
31 Oct 2005, 3:09am
Sigh. So I have Scripto to blame for cheating me out of the answers. Woe!
1 Nov 2005, 12:16am
Oh no, Aran. You absolutely cannot put the blame on me for this. If only Twigrl had commented on this post earlier! I waited for quite a while waiting for her to comment. How much longer could I have waited? I had promised you to make the kind of post that I did. How long could I have kept you waiting?
1 Nov 2005, 1:20am
I'm just going by what twigrl said. She did tell us in clear words that she did not reply to my questions when she saw your latest blog post. Your latest blog post is definitely your doing. I understand that you did what you did for me, but that did have its repercussions, which have also deprived me of answers. You cannot deny that. :(
1 Nov 2005, 3:49am
OK Aran here’s my logic-As you said it’s all subjective, you set higher standers for yourself, not everyone will or may be not everyone can provided certain circumstances. The question was- do you value somebody because of their abilities not because that somebody has a soul, a body who is a part of humanity? As I see it, just because you value someone it doesn’t’ mean that you necessarily like or love them. I value you as a human being, mainly because you are a human, a part of humanity, a person with a soul but I can like or dislike you on the bases of your attitudes or abilities that you might have. I value humans, all six billion of them but I don’t love or like them all. Some disguises me to extent that I want to throw up and some are so adorable that I just don’t want to leave their company. So, I guess what I was trying to say is one shouldn’t entirely be loved or liked based on if they excel at something or not but based on how compassionate and kind they are to fellow human being. Believe me babes; by no means was I trying to support all those bums. I believe in human potential and that one should try to be the best.
I don’t think I have any kind of rebellions in me, its just that I don’t agree with some of the societies customs or norms so to say but certainly do understands the “why’s” behind them. I hope that make sense. THANKS! Aran, I will take it as a compliment that you see in me what I could be. When I say punctuation is not my thing its because I enrolled myself in a Grammar class for a full quarter (its was a torture) and I came out learning nothing. No! I just came out learning that I shouldn’t use a comma if I am using that…:) So you tell me didn’t I made an effort to be! to learn…and also let me inform you that half of my shelf is filled with writing books ( the second most). Now what do have to say?
Oh! Mr. Writer you say only if I had commented earlier! I think I am quite early…..do realize what its mean to be a STUDENT! Specially when the sem is almost ending, can you imagine the stress related to all those papers to write, presentations to do, project and labs to finish, interviews to do and articles to analyze. Oh! Believe me I was quite early.
1 Nov 2005, 4:05am
"So, I guess what I was trying to say is one shouldn’t entirely be loved or liked based on if they excel at something or not but based on how compassionate and kind they are to fellow human being"
I totally agree with that, but then that is also an individual trait present in some people and absent in others. So, you're still liking someone based on their ability to be kind and compassionate, and not because of their inherent souls. ;)
About the grammar, well, after that enlightening bit, I'd say maybe it's not your cup of tea, but one who perseveres shall succeed! :)
And, let this be on record, I really like your spirit. :)
1 Nov 2005, 11:20am
I don't think I should comment on this post anymore. Leave the sacred space to Aran and Twigrl.
1 Nov 2005, 10:37pm
Don’t you see being compassionate and kind is what we as human being are born with it is actually a part of their soul which they choose to suppress. Ohhhhh Aran!
2 Nov 2005, 2:42am
Ohhhhh twigrl! You mean to say poor Scripto here is suppressed? Wow! That, in addition to suffering from bipolar depression... Sad.
2 Nov 2005, 8:01am
LOL! give me five!hehehe...so you agree with my diagnosis. I feel sorry for tha kid...hopefully things will brighten up for him and he will learn to be nice to people. ;D