Ecstatic Failure

Think it over


rock_26iin | 12 November, 2007 08:33

In my chase for you, I destroyed my dignity. In my love, for you I gave away my humility. I destroyed everything I held near and dear for you, and what did you give me in return? Nothing.

Now, I ask myself, was it worth it? Does your love actually cost more than my dignity? And the invariable, infallible answer i get is "FUCK NO!" Think for yourself, how much did I give you? How happy did I keep you? And was all of that worth it? Again, "FUCK NO!"

Then why? Why, every night before I say goodbye to consciousness, the last though I have is of you? Why do I dream of you as my bride? Why do I want to give you everything I have left? After you, who knew what I was going through, decided to be a heartless bitch to me?? WHY? God damn it, why?

I don't want to love you anymore. I don't want to think of you anymore....but I do. I want to rid myself of you, I want to cleanse my body of you, but I can't. I can't help but think of you. I can't help but want you. Even though I don't want to. I'm at war with myself and it only gets worse with every passing day.

Goodbye to you but I will return. I know I will even though I don't want to!


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