August 2nd, 1:00PM. A lonely place.
______________________________________________________
Bin tere sanam
mar mittenge hum
aa meri zindagi
aaaah aana hii pada sajana
zaalim hain dil ki lagi...
another great cloudy afternoon sky in what is turning out to be the most beautiful monsoon in a while. the cool breeze brushin against my face, a hint of thunder among the peace (duh..its gonna rain)..rows of books, a myriad of words floating around me and in my mind. the words that are strugglin to break through the barrier of my hesitance and reluctance to let my heart win over my mind, to let my feelings prevail over commonsense(?).
the trusty QJam at CCD loads up the usual hindi-remixes, songs i abhor with every livin breath of mine. i look out through the glass walls at the sky , can't help thinkin if it ain't nearly picture perfect. but this is all besides the point, innit? i'm lookin at things which have stood the test of eternity, while in front of me is the face which i wish could stare at for eternity(whoa!). d QJam rewinds and loops..same song yet again..and again. for a whole fuckin hour. too much whipped cream on my Tropical Temptation. ... out of CCD and into the inviting arms of gloom. the atmosphere a sublime backdrop. a picture etched in my brain for forever now, a goodbye to cherish, one song loopin incessantly in my mind's jukebox.
the sky goes from cloudy to dark grey. almost picture perfect innit? raindrops happily plop onto my windscreen, gatherin and runnin down , formin longs rivulets along the windshield, kinda like the streams of loneliness gushin through my system. (why aren't the goddam wipers working?)
goddam song jus won't go out of my head...goddamit.
... yeh jaan kar balamjii
thaami hain teri baahe
sehni padengi sabki kaanto bhari nigahe
sab sehenge hum
aur hasenge hum
aa meri zindagi
la la la aana hii pada sajana....
:)
Payne
___________________________________________________________
the above text is a gross exaggeration of the truth...or something like it.
PS : with due apologies to Pye, FA and all the other wonderfully composed posts inspired by the weather. (Raindance by Pye and Pictures & Forever in the Rain by FA) am totally sorry for writing yet another "raindrops-are-falling-on-my-head" post, can't help it. :D
Current Mood: Happy
Current Music: DJ Suketu - Bin tere sanam (downloaded using Areslite)
3 Aug 2004, 4:52pm
You're good. If only you'd let yourself be.
3 Aug 2004, 5:03pm
nuttin.
3 Aug 2004, 7:16pm
Nice one man...the whole post is suffused with a gentle sadness and nostalgic moodiness. I hope you don't mind if I say this but perhaps it could have have been more sturctured and a litle polished around the corners! Hope you are not offended by my comment, its being being made with a constructive intent :)
3 Aug 2004, 7:47pm
@Pye : :)
@Johnny: ok...
@Anil: Dude, y wud i be offended da? :D u be da man...n u be also commenting here! i agree it requires a bit o polishin n all..but its honest..:D will try to do better..next time..if there is a next time.
thank you all..:D
3 Aug 2004, 8:55pm
"if there is a next time"...wao :D...what an exhilarating possibility of not having to bear u again :D...move over, you don't deserve this space.
3 Aug 2004, 9:25pm
wow..as Aran would say..."..you're jus jealous" aren't ya now? :p
** payne narrows down to his suspects to ppl whose toes he stepped on, on the way to d top**
**too many...yaawwnn**
3 Aug 2004, 9:38pm
jealous ? wht the f*** !! i am just B O R E D, thanks to ur mindless talk.
3 Aug 2004, 9:46pm
jealous ? wht the f*** !! i am just B O R E D, thanks to ur mindless talk.
3 Aug 2004, 9:48pm
don't u even understand tht i am the one who is pushing u on ur fuckin' way to d top ? u r such a stupid a**hole :P
3 Aug 2004, 10:34pm
hey..u wanna say somethin..say it..
don't be all shy n modest by typin all ***'s...wokay my dear First Hate Fan.
:)
4 Aug 2004, 2:12am
Correction: Your first hate fan to come out of the closet. :D
There are many in there. :|
4 Aug 2004, 9:35am
You EP - now you've got that rotten ROTTEN song stuck in my head...
Why all melancholy, kiddo? Let your smile be your rainbow... :-)
*puke puke retch*
4 Aug 2004, 10:36am
*ahem*
kiddo!
*snicker*
4 Aug 2004, 10:40am
@Johnny: is it stuffy in there? is the close proximity to so many gay-arses slowly changin ur sexual preferences? :p
@Neuro : :D
@Aran: :|
4 Aug 2004, 5:46pm
Dayaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. i m ur biggest FAN ra. :D Why wud i be in that grp of ppl who just resent u. No my frnd my feeling for ur posts is very complicated, far more superior to just resenting. *Ahem* and it commands its own entity as a group, with only moi in it. :D
4 Aug 2004, 5:50pm
dude..was that you?! @-) dats d hypnotized icon from yahoo!
:D
whoa..!! ok!! :D
thanks man...
5 Aug 2004, 12:27am
"innit" *Snicker*...wats up with the Brit Lingo....(TOMATO...TomEYto.).*Sigh*...
5 Aug 2004, 5:46am
what took u so long to post dude? we were all so eagerly waiting...:)
5 Aug 2004, 12:10pm
"face you cud stare at for eternity"???
innit too much detail you friggin maniac? i REALLY dint need to kno dat... *@(@*
here's me shakin_me_fist at all da losers who leave too much detail on their blogs..and ya, in case u din get it..i'm talkin abt you.
grrr.
syko.
5 Aug 2004, 5:19pm
nee avva...d last line was meant for maniacs like you..
a GROSS exaggeration of the truth!!!
hmmmmmmmmphhhhhhhhhh!