As put forth by my moses

Current Mood: Confused
Current Music: last resort

chronic alcholic that i am its kind of suprising that i am still in my senses but i have to
confess that i am enjoying every single bit of my soberness...so what did i do...i ate slept
got up..posting my second blog of the day coz i have got nothing to do...so whats my blog about
nothing in particular...am just watching the life drift past me while i am sitting around..this
time sober though...so what has changed well am not that pessimistic this time that is..kind of
accepted that i am a total sucker not feeling sad about it...
well its raining kind of o.k with it but right now i dont have enough clothes so rather not enjoy
it....saturday night went for a couple of plays...well they were spoofs..dry comedy..o.k for a
change..

had this interesting discussions with no one in particular about books...well for her the best book
ever to be written was The DaVinci Code..accepted it was gripping with lots of cryptics..ciphers..but
Dan Brown worked on that book in the sense that if one concentrates on the basic plot it leaves you
disappointed but he did involve the readers with the ciphers..although he gave a new dimension to
paganism but also made peace with Christianity..good book that one...but definitely not the best(for me)

then came Ayn Rand and her objectivism..i shall not go in to her topic coz i know that there are some
die hard fans...for me roark is impossible...almost you can categorize all the ppl in to keatings..tooheys and
wynands...

well theres LOTR of which i am a great fan tolkien almost created an alternate world with 6 forms of livings
with a definite purpose...he almost played GOD...also the potter series good read...not that great though

then comes Puzo with his series of italian heroes well good read..but one book was different..The Dark Arena..
a very cold book so to say i enjoyed it...

but for me best thing ever to be written was Anne Frank's Diary...coz first of all it was not a book written
to be published or something...it were just the feelings and emotions of a girl thru some very difficult times..


Current Mood: Cheerful
Current Music: shadow on the sun

these past few days has been eventful intellectually for me

Current Mood: Thoughtful
Current Music: lemon tree - fools garden

whats it with the girls...accepted i dont appreciate humour, i have low iq dont know when to smole and when to be serious.
i can never mature...but thats just me...yup i dont know whats a relationship whats a commitment...but if she wants me to
to hang around her all the while...if she wants me to fake be artificial..i just cant be that i am what i am...if my philosophy
doesnt match the rest..i just cant help it..can i ...i know the fault lies in me...what can i do...if i believe that there are two forms
of life...bacteria and parasites...parasites always need a host to survive...they cant be individual...bacteria can become cysts...in hard times they can live by thamselves..
i am not saying that i can live all by myself but if i dont share my sadtimes does it mean that i am not sharing it with her...what does she want...
that i should cry on her shoulder whenever i have some problems...thats just not me..i can tackle my own problems...she thinks i am reserved i dont talk much..
i am not saying the whole system is wrong...i am only saying that i am wrong...i like her for what she is...
midlife crisis..definitely not..just a passing phase...think i have to mature...

Current Mood: Itching For One
Current Music: aicha-outlandish

whats it that i am scared of...why is it that i do it when iam only drunk...dont ask me ...i cant answer that...although..i shall put forth my theory..may be i am not bothered right now that some ones reading this...who cares...

whats love...relationship...why do we need someone special so that we share our happy moments and sad ones...guess we are are all parasites..we cant live our own..we want someone so that we brag about our greatness..show them that we are c;ass apart...why do we even want that...according to the the basics we only enjoy the things we do for ourselves...where we donot expect any appreciation...its just that we do it and we should feel happy about it just because we did it...

this contradicts our very own existence...that is if we are not getting anything out of it...then why the hell...should we do it...its all confusing....we need attetion...thets our driving force...hope nobody denys it...

you are good at something because people say you are good at it...otherwise you dont do it....you will always have that wicked smile./..try to to act humble just becuase somebody says you are goood at that...otherwise you dont even care about that thing....

why cant we be above people society...why is it that you have to always crave for that recognition...theres nothing that you can say its your own...you are driven by the passion that you may probably be noticed...just because you have done that....

precisecly thats the reason why i am doing this...simultaneously...i want to be noticed and not...feeling like that electron...which can pass through any one of the slits...but ultimately...forming that integral part of the wave pattern.....always wonder about how an electron can choose any one of the slits...no matter what it chooses it does have an important role in forming a pattern....dual nature if confirmed for an electron...it can be peacefully put forth for an individual...guess i am toomuch drunk...but i do believe that whatever you chooose...you are here for a reason...it doesnt matter whether your decision is temporarily bad or goor good...you have a part to play in this world ...

Current Mood: Thoughtful
Current Music: show must go on

why do we all(at least me) live in old times....that is we only appreciate floyd or led zep...queen....come to think of it my kids will be remembering britney..jeylo...hate to take their names but ..think about the lyrics of the times we live in..are so pathetic..music dont talk about it...it sucks big time..come to think of it...the quality of the life is exponentially decreasing...if you ask me we all living in a place where it is just impossible to get something which we can even say matches our past...

Current Mood: Sick
Current Music: dont ask me

by the way i got this question why always should the film reviews should be critical...especially some thing like VILLAGE....obviously..it was something different from the last film of manoj...it was not definitely not something like SIXTH SENSE but it had its own good points...guess we should appreciate the work done by him..showing himself as a reflection was some thing that blew my mind....sometimes if you even think why some telugu films are made...it just churns your stomach   ....  @#$& deepa menon

Current Mood: Patriotic
Current Music: in the end

The fan is rotating .have been staring at it for quite sometime.i try to focus on something other than that

Current Mood: Screwed
Current Music: those were the best times of our lives

guess i get this gutsy only when i am drunk...but when you are kicked in your face ..end up screwing everything that you define best thing to do is get drunk and muse over it endlessly

Current Mood: Embarrassed
Current Music: comfortably numb