Mate, Feed, Kill, Repeat
The wizard feels thoughtful...
black_wizard | 14 November, 2004 01:50
Exams are just around the coner and i havent started studying seriously.This is something which happens everytime. I always tell myself, "Beta BW, you had better start studying or else saale tu toh gaya!" I have been lucky many times when it come to exams but then i know that sometime...sooommmetime my luck is bound to run out.
I've made a lot of hasty and unwise decisions. Took studies lightly---got my arse kicked, trusted the wrong people got myarse kicked, fell for the wrong females---got my arse kicked yet again(I know that thats a lot of BW-getting-hi-arse-kicked sessions but aah...whatever). And whenever this happened I thought of turning over a new leaf(Technically, i've thought of doing this a gazillion times but i just couldnt do it). Once bitten twice shy...naaah, I think I should be saying once bitten twice WHY?! Kyon? Kaiku? Its like my friend Subhash who always tells me,with much disgust of course, "Fucker, you'll never learn!" But you know what, this is how i am...no...this is WHO I am!
The fear of being used... this has happened to me quite a few times and trust me, it feels fucking bad. It feels horrible when u realise that you've been had. The symptoms: Disbelief, wanting not to believe that you have been had and then, depression after you start believing, which in most cases happens to be true.
Oh well, I think i had better put a lid on my rona-dhona. BW shall always be BW! So like i always say...Laaaaait!!!
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JOhnny | 14/11/2004, 12:09
Deep... Verra deep...
Wizzy bhai... U have so much in u... Never thot so... Infact We both are on the same boat buddy... U r almost 90% similar to me... So dont worry, u shall come out with flying colours... just chill and live in the present. :)
All the Best
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-:-PhAT-:- | 15/11/2004, 03:08
ayy..wht can i say..shitt happnz..hope u two hav a gr8 tyme togthr..alwayzzz..ahaha..once bittn twice why..funni..
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Jai | 15/11/2004, 05:29
Hey Kaala Jaadugar, come on dude. Just go for the chick. And about heart breaks... are nt u used to it by now?..... and in your own words........Laaaait!
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Jaan | 15/11/2004, 07:44
Hey BW, didn't know you blogged. Anyways, was listening to Sopranos Music CD (Original Series). Your blog made me think of "THE BEAST IN ME" song...you should listen to it sometime. Take care and hope you feel better.
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Black Wizard | 15/11/2004, 13:12
Hey Jaan. Will try to get hold of the CD. Thanks:)
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azazel | 15/11/2004, 22:57
*looks at BW n a smirk starts to develop*
*points to BW n starts LHAO*
*ahem*
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Syd | 16/12/2004, 18:20
With Love, a great door opens. A kind of connection with the whole. Don't confuse it with a great door to a never-ending feeling of intimate bliss. Love brings in all kinds of seasons. And it takes all kinds on seasons to experience life at it's ultimate. So welcome the seasons and dwell in them with all yr heart. For no season Lasts forever. But the change of season is required if you want to live a life full of Love. So rather than loving just a particular person. Love the phenomenon of love itself. rather than doubt in a person, Trust in the phenomenon of Trust in itself. And soon you'll see life's a bed of Roses though the seasons change.
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Alexis | 14/11/2004, 02:50
Hi BW,
you obviously have a good thing going. With this girl, I mean. Dont let your past interfere with your present---history doesnt always repeat itself. Curb these negative feelings that are creeping up and I sure you will live "happily ever after". Yes, that is possible.
And hey, good luck with your exams. Youre a smart guy, I know in my heart that you'll do well. My good wishes are always with you. And you know that.